..and yeah, the title speaks for itself, the reminisces of life from a teenage guy, looking to realise his dreams no matter how hard life gets on the way to the peak =)
He's eighteen years of age, dwells with the complications and conflicts in life, which he believes he is learning to be a better guy from. Still looking for answers, he's pretty sure he'll get the 'answers' he wants someday =)
'whether you realize it or not, they work in very different yet similar ways.any sense?'
Howdy people :) How's the hols going? =) oops..wait..no offense to those still having their end of semester tests looming near =P Mine's been okay so far. To be fair, i can't complain. Yeah, i can't complain at all =) Well, it's not gonna be a long one this time round but here goes. There i was listening to songs one night, surfing the net away. One song elapsed another and before i knew it, my whole 'Top 25' Playlist was out. Being the usual repetitive self of mine, i listened to them again. And again, and again. Then it knocked me in the head. Songs are so powerful. The melodies, the meanings, the 'encrypted' messages. They all have a certain effect on us. When you listen to a song, whether u realize it or not, you get 'into' the song. It sways you on and puts you on some mood, the mood of the song. It then echoes into your soul, you listen. And you listen, and then it rings all over again in your head. Now, i said songs were powerful didn't i? Well, songs wouldn't be composed if there weren't any words in the first place. So now, words are powerful. Not only in songs do they make us feel senses of emotions, but in books and all other things we see everyday. In fact, one random word that arrests our eyes, catches our attention could shape how our day ahead would turn out to be, and i daresay, sometimes even the whole week ahead! Yes or no, you do the thinking ;) Everyone's what they believe in anyways =)
Driving down to KL tomorrow morning. Adieu people ;) For those on breaks, enjoy your vacations! and to those having their finals, all the best ;)
It's raining again. Yes, again. It's been raining since the semester break started. It's been exactly a week since i left KL. It was raining at the Subang Airport raining when i reached AS. And at this very moment, it's still raining. I can't help but to wonder, with the rain persisting every single day, that not a day had gone by sunny and bright, whether this is all a part of the norm ; whether it's just a part of the monsoon season every year, or it's..because..maybe...oh never mind. We all have our own interpretations. Since apologizing every single time i update the blog (if you'd noticed) wouldn't be such a good idea, i guess i'll just skip that part alright?
So, I've been doing okay. Well, to be honest, i've been better actually. But yeah, life goes on. Now let's go all the way back to the last time i updated my blog. And no, i'm not gonna drag all of it into this post but i'll just sum things up. Firstly, there was the KO-PLN night. Well, i know it's been some time ago, but yeah it's worth mentioning. It was a night when all the scholars in the college who were involved in this (Kurikulum Pelajar Luar-Negara) programme represented their groups in performances and all, just a night of celebrating the end of the programme. For some, it Ko-PLN activities are in the first semester. For the others, it only starts during the second semester. As for mine, it's been an experience worth gaining if you ask me. One thing's for sure, it taught me to never mess with time. Well, how did i even mess with time to start with? It's a long one, so yeah. Well, I was in one of the groups who performed on that night, and yeapm we definitely had fun :) Credits to everyone who performed that night, it was a job well done, not forgetting the spectators who played their part in bringing the house down as well ;) The video's below, so watch if you have the time aight? though it's really noisy, at least there's something =P
After that, there was the end of semester exams (way way after the performances.). Well, my weeks preparing for the exams were very, very 'librarish' if you'd ask me. I mean, i was literally in the library from morning to evening, and most of the time till night. Don't ask me if i studied the whole day, because honestly, i don't know. But one thing's for sure, i actually enjoyed myself in the library. It was kinda like solace in a way. So, no i'm not sick of the library. And again, no, i don't love the library. It's just fine in a very good way. So everyone buckled up and revised, revised, revised and revised and yada yada for the exams. About the exams, there were a little shaky for me to be honest, firstly because my time management during the papers were totally below par. But it's all done and dust now, so yeah, no point regretting or anything. But if there's one thing that i wanna change next semester, it's the hours that i spend studying. Hell, i hope i don't turn into a nerd next semester! heh..
Spent a few days in KL before coming back home as, well it was gonna be a long break anyways. One week into the break, i've actually pretty much done nothing for the past week. I mean, yeah i read novels, the papers (which i DON'T really get to in college =.=) , watched the Gunners, played basketball and all, but still, nothing worth mentioning actually. Oh well, at least i'm sleeping well xD that, i can't complain =P haha..Oh yeah, i'll be heading back to KL at the end of the month. Going to Hong Kong, Macau and then to China for a vacation :) Looking forward to it, though i've only just been to Hong Kong last year xD
Now, more to reflections. Er..how do i put this?..well, as usual, i've done quite a lot of thinking these few days. I mean, not that i don't think much during the normal days, but the holidays really gave me more time to be a lil' more analytical on how i see things. It gives me the chance to actually look into things that i don't even have time for in college. Heck, being analytical and observant is a good thing, but being too analytical, could really bring down the day for you if you don't know where to stop. A living proof - me. Okay, i thought a lot about everlasting beauty. or in other words, eternal bliss/ eternal beauty. Beauty as in the uniqueness in personality, physical or spiritual beauty, and anything that gives one an impression so special that he or she remembers it. Is there such a thing as eternal or everlasting/immortal beauty? Cause as far as i'm concerned, nothing last forever. Yeah, memories could last forever. But living on and on in different minds and hearts could only be considered 'partly immortal' right? Let's put this metaphor in the case of a sunset. It comes. and it goes. And i thought 'so every beauty has a beginning and an inevitable ending. Nothing last forever. We come. We go. End of story.'
But a good friend of mine told me 'Well, it's like the four seasons. There's always an underlying beauty in a fading beauty'
To be honest, yes, it struck me. It sorta put me through another strain of thoughts. Now, what do you guys think? eternal beauty? Yes? No? Well, till now, i can't be sure. But i know, there has to be a partial yes and no in it. That beauty stays alive in some things and in some things, they just fade away and are covered up in the sands of time.
And before i forget, i get a lot of people coming up to me telling me things like, ' What the hell are you talking about in your blog? I don't get you. I've read your post a few times but still, I don't get a thing.' . How do i respond? Well, i'll just smile and be satisfied. and why be satisfied you may wonder? Let's just say, if everything in life was at all straight-forward, then what's the point in living it at all? =) At least i know there's someone out there who thinks the way i do, and for that, once again, thank you er..miss V :) Will be updating more soon people. stay tuned ;)
enjoy :)
adieu,
kyzd
p.s - to those sitting for their end of sem tests soon [you know who you are =)], good luck! and happy hols everyone! cheers :)
Is it getting better Or do you feel the same Will it make it easier on you now You got someone to blame You say...
One love One life When it's one need In the night One love We get to share it Leaves you baby if you Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you Or leave a bad taste in your mouth You act like you never had love And you want me to go without Well it's...
Too late Tonight To drag the past out into the light We're one, but we're not the same We get to Carry each other Carry each other One... Have you come here for forgiveness Have you come to raise the dead Have you come here to play Jesus To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much More than a lot You gave me nothing Now it's all I got We're one But we're not the same Well we Hurt each other Then we do it again You say Love is a temple Love a higher law Love is a temple Love the higher law You ask me to enter But then you make me crawl And I can't be holding on To what you got When all you got is hurt One love One blood One life You got to do what you should One life With each other Sisters Brothers One life But we're not the same We get to Carry each other Carry each other
One...life
One
To that someone who sent me this song, thank you :) After listening to it for a few times, it actually rings over and over again in this head of mine =)
Exams are looming, due dates are coming, but one thing's for sure, we'll all be there someday.
'..of never explaining yourself no matter what, cause those who matter don't need it, and those who don't just won't believe it' =)
It's been a while. And i've been good. So far, it exceeds what i thought of myself. But at times, it all falls apart. A lil' unrelated maybe? I hope i'd know, so i don't just stop and shut down every now and then.
Secondhand Serenade - Your Call
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry call I'm desperate for your voice Listening to the song we used to sing In the car, do you remember Butterfly, Early Summer It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? (What's your, what's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
Tell me what to do, what to see, how to see and how to go from here. thank you.
'Where the hell have I been?!' That thought screwed my mind the moment it came up. It was exactly what I've been asking myself for the past..what? a few weeks? maybe even months? What was happening to me you ask? Trust me, i didn't know. All i know is my enthusiastic part sunk and vanished into thin air. It was like simple things that happened around me was affecting me.And the worst part is that I never was like that. I was never a pessimist. A bit by bit, as days went by, it got worse. And I just couldn't help it. I was a fool really. A fool of my own making. But i knew it. I knew the cause. I knew what I did wrong, where i went wrong, and when i went wrong. I should've known. Well, everyone and yeah, EVERYONE makes mistakes. Mistakes fill our lives up, whether we like it or not. And no matter what, now, I can look into the mirror and say, 'YEAP. I was foolish. But one can't be foolish for life eh? Everything has a start' =) Once again, some people would get this post more than what the others might. But whatever it is, life goes on. Thank you people and to those special few, you know who you are. Thanks for the knocking =) signning 'in' and off, kyzd "mistakes go a long way in life. and what matters most is not the consequences, but the values we all get from them, however excruciating they might be"
