Program Kepimpinan Tun Razak (PKTR) 08' - A Life Defining Moment

First and foremost, i'm sorry for the long silence. Have been pretty busy with things to be done and lotsa other errands as well. I won't elaborate much on that. Well, i just came back from a leadership programme held in KL and Negeri Sembilan . It was no other than Program Kepimpinan Tun Razak 2008, otherwise also known as PKTR 08' =) There were 48 of us from all corners of Malaysia! I have to admit, i was a lil' skeptical about the camp in the beginning. But as time flew , passing us with swiftness that we didn't even notice in our busi-ness, i have a confession to make. It IS the best programme i have ever attended and i daresay there will be no other programme better than it in most senses.

Well, i'm not going to say much about the activities and the things the participants went through because most of the bloggers from the camp has already done so =P Plus, we can't really reveal much because we'd be releasing spoilers for the future selected participants! xD I would like to quote what Abang Ayaz said, 'We, the facilitators will just help and assist if needed along the programme. This is YOUR programme, you do what you want with it, and how much u get from this camp, whether or not it will be something really significant is entirely up to all of you. The facilitators are just 'pemudah cara' (s)'

The programme was about 16 days and every single day, i'd say i learnt so many new things throughout the whole thing. Let's just say some perspective changes, and some just get justified, and we all become stronger in a sense =) The most significant thing to me in the programme is that i met so many great and interesting people and , by using 'interesting' i really mean it. It's like i never knew there were so much that we could actually learn from others and how much others can learn as well from us. It was just fantastic being there in the group. The togetherness, everything about it was simply undescribable really. We were not just mere participants in PKTR , we ARE PKTR =) and yes, now , we're in AYTR as well xD [Alumni Yayasan Tun Razak] 

I would say i was really satisfied at the end of the programme. Yeah, there were tears and everything when we had to all part and go out separate ways. Still, the bond between us remain strong and i have faith in each and every one of you that we'd be united for a very very long time to come ;D Thing is, everytime i think about the memoirs we all shared back in PKTR 08' , i sorta switch to emo mode and yeah, it feels horrid. and not to mention, ROTTEN! but still, i'll never regret a single thing i did in the camp. But ofcourse, turning back time would be a very tempting option for me to reminisce into the past again, experiencing it all over again. I don't mind, not at all. Why would i rite? xD haha..i wouldn't mind if it went on forever =P haha..now, that shows how the post-PKTR syndrome has affected me =S

Oh well, now moving on to messages and dedications, to all 2008 PKTR-ians! We must have a gathering soon aite? People are dying already after the camp xD haha..To the facilitators, u don't know how much each and everyone of you have inspired me =) Abang Ayaz, Abang Sumi, Abang Tengku , Kak Nicol , Kak Sharon , Kak Wei Zhen , Abang Farith , Kak Lee Vee , Kak Sarah , Abang Khairul , Kak Ainul , Eugene and so many of the others i didn't mention, all of you helped in making PKTR 2008 a success =D

Lee Julin, Jaramier Cobrado Joibi , Jasmine , Alicia , Ryner , Nisshan , Ding Lik Suong , Jocinda Wong , Gary Ngai , Tan Yuet Yang , Hanif , Darren , Sin Toun , Bosco , Tarsha , Asha , Candy , Tracey , Baihaqi , Fatin , Adila , Panier , Danny , Yashini , the list goes on and on [everyone in PKTR 08] =) Just so you know, all of you made a difference in my life =) 

I'll end this post with the lyrics of 2 songs that we performed on the closing ceremony night at Royale Bintang =) First thing's first, our very own PKTR 2008 'modified song' :

Our version at PKTR...

At The Beginning

We were strangers starting out on a journey,
Never dreaming what we have to go through,
Now here we are, and i'm suddenly standing,
At the beginning with you.

Ku tak tahu apa yang ku lalui,
Tak tersangka hubungan bersama,
Kini ku girang, dengan impian nyata,
Sinila mulanya.

And life is a road that i wanna keep going,
Love is a river a wanna keep flowing,
Life is a road now and forever,
Wonderful journey.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,
I'll be there when the storm is through,
In the end i wanna be standing,
At the beginning with you.

Orang asing dalam pengembaraan,
Tak tersangka impian digapai,
Kini ku berdiri, melangkah ke hadapan,
Sinilah mulanya.

And life is a road that i wanna keep going,
Love is a river a wanna keep flowing,
Life is a road now and forever,
Wonderful journey.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,
I'll be there when the storm is through,
In the end i wanna be standing,
At the beginning with you.

And then, our very own PKTR 2008 theme song which we composed from a scratch =) :

Wadah Kepimpinan

Tangan menggengam perpaduan,

Hati beritikad penyatuan ,

Kaki melangkaui kemajuan ,

Itulah amalan berkepimpinan .

Benih Kepimpinan disemaikan ,

Kamilah pemimpin masa depan ,

Menggapai wawasan ,

Penjana pembangunan ,

Pemacu kegemilangan .

PKTR ,

Wadah perdana bina kepimpinan ,

Mara melangkah hadapan ,

Menyingkap 'Satu Malaysia' impian bersama ,

Kamilah wacana pembangunan!

Benih Kepimpinan disemaikan ,

Kamilah pemimpin masa depan ,

Menggapai wawasan ,

Penjana pembangunan ,

Pemacu kegemilangan .

PKTR ,

Wadah perdana bina kepimpinan ,

Mara melangkah hadapan ,

Menyingkap 'Satu Malaysia' impian bersama ,

Kamilah wacana pembangunan!

Guess that's all for now =) Pictures coming soon xD take care and regards to all PKTR-ians =) missing all of you loads!! ;D

signing off,

kyzd [PKTR 08'] =)

randomness.panicky.

                                 [Did i do it right?? was it enough?]

  And so, life goes on. I've been thinking a lot bout the 12th. or whatever the friggin' date is when the results would be announced. and yeah, i admit. i'm scared. what's in store for me? will i make it? what's gonna happen? 1119 grade? bio? sej? add math? oh hell!! since the results thingy got into my head, i've had problems sleeping and i'd been bothered by millions of thoughts in my head about it whatever i decide to do.i just wanna say - i'm scared.and. it's not at all melodramatic or anything. it's just saddening to wait like this, losing all ur self-esteem and confidence to god-knows-where! i don't feel like saying anything now. with that said, it'll suffice for now.

signing off,

kyzd

of the results, foundations, pre-meds, MBBS and law?? oh !@#$%!!!

  i'm currently in a daze really. i don't know what i'm doing, what i'm supposed to do. and what i would turn out doing after a month or so. Heck, i don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow. okayy, enough crap. So, i went to the STAR edu fair in Penang with Tamim and Megat just yesterday. Met up with chia soon, bond , zi jing and kai seng there. Spoke to them for a lil while and we all went our own ways. Man there was so much to see i was robbed off my focus and attention..

 

EVENTUALLY, i made it straight to myself, [FOUNDATIONS, PRE-MED, MBBS and LAW]. yeap, that's it. so i went around wandering, speaking to almost all the reps from uni's and colleges who were there. and what did i find out? well, plenty. I'd love to brag all day long about the fair but i'll give it a pass since i'm feeling pretty lazy now xD We went for lunch and then headed to G Hotel for the IDP fair at 3, knowing that it was mainly for ppl who were interested to study in Aussie. And had discussions with the reps again. All in all, yeah u had fun. I got to know so much more, and i mean MUCH more about the applications , procedures, tenures and everything. And one thing's for sure, i know what i wanna do at that moment. I mean, it was all just filtered to a few options. 

Thing is ,ppl around kept on reminding me that the SPM results are due soon. which means, seriously, doomsday. It's either i live or i die really. And frankly, my self-esteem and confidence plus faith are stuttering down the ground as time goes on. It's rumored to be on the 12th of March. and yeah. i am friggin' drived up by the news. Not that i'm the only one worrying about the results i'm gonna get, but i just can't help but to think of it all the time.gawd, life's like that i guess..what's gonna happen? what will i be planning to do in the future? i know, but honestly, i still don't know.

see? back.to.the.daze.issue.

sigining off,

kyzd

admitted.reminisced. and yes, I'm sorry xD

Yes, Yes , Yes. I'm been away for a long time from blogging. It's purely a problem of timing and a lil' bit of procrastination issues in it :P oh well..let's see..it's been quite a while..and frankly, i don't feel like pouring everything out about what had happened for the past 2 months or so. So, here :

• I came back from kl on the 2nd of Jan.
• Went for an interview on the 3rd for a leadership camp thingy.
• rotted at home.
• got my license.
• went to Penang for CNY =)
• back home pilling up on novels xD
• went to school twice just to finish some stuff and visit some people.

Well, yeah..that's all i'll say about the missed entries :P Let's see. Now, i'll continue waiting and waiting for march to come and when the results are out , .... doomsday looms =.= might as well enjoy the very last bit of the holidays to the max. I'll try to make myself blog some other time. Gotta go rush over some pages xD 

[to those having exams, all the best =) and to those enduring tonnes of homework and getting fed up of it, be patient =D there's still next year xD and to everyone that i've not been in contact with since school ended, I hope ur doing fine out there]

signing off,

kyzd

P.S - I reckon Angels and Demons by Dan Brown, movie's coming out soon and the book's fantastic =) give it a try xD

one word - busy. and no, it's not enough..damn i'm busy XD

owh..I haven't blogged in 2 days. Been busy with lotsa stuff these few days actually. Hmm..*flashing back*

Oh yeah, now i remember. I went for 4 hours of practical driving on Sunday and another 4 hours today, which completes it all =) only left QTI and JPJ test now. Should be okay i think..at least i hope..haha..Will be doing my QTI early January if nothing comes in between.

I've been sleeping pretty late actually..Since i came back from HK, the earliest i slept was at..3.30 a.m? yeah yeah, something like that i think..Haven't been able to sleep well and I don't have any clue bout what's causing it..haha..oh well..i'll try to sleep early tonight i guess. Last night, went for i went for supper together with Churn, Ooi and his girl. Went to Nasmir and i must say though it was brief, it was kinda fun =) Delivered some food for Ooi's bro and we sent her back to spg.empat. Then, we came back to my house. Ate snacks while watching the Arsenal vs. Liverpool game and i tell you, @#$% Adebayor!! haha..stupid red card..sigh..at least it was a draw in the end =)

Woke up early in the morning again to go for torturing driving lessons today as i've said. I'm gonna organise my things up before i go to KL tomorrow..yeah, going to start journey at 5.30 tomorrow i think. I'll be celebrating Christmas there and not to forget, my sister's birthday on New Year's Day itself. Plan to do some shopping and all, plus meet up with my cousins and uncles =) haha..Should be fun XD

Somehow, i keep getting the feeling that everything will turn 0ut okay eventually for me, but at the same time, my confidence and self-esteem keeps getting lower. and in case ur wondering what i'm talking about, yeah it's about the SPM results and stuff..Will I get what I want?? ah, gonna try to shut it outta my mind for now since there's not gonna be any solution to it =P

Guess i'll stop here. Wanna listen to some songs and sleep for a while..Then i'll do my organising and pack for tomorrow =) oh..btw before i forget, good luck to all those taking their PMR results on the 24th =) or whenever they get it since it's gonna be real soon neways XD haha..Take care people =)

Signing off,

kyzd

P.S - Am so looking forward to Christmas!! XD