'some memories were just meant to remain as they are'
It was 7pm, stopped, went down from the car, *snaps*. Done. And the photo remains to date. Well, it was taken quite some time back when i was in Form 4. I remembered feeling miserable at the time i took the picture. I was confused, mixed up , agitated. Say what you want , i'd have to admit, i wasn't really adapting well to the changes in Form 4. Certain things became different, more subjects to study (silly, i know =P) and all those petty issues that were bogging my mind were..yes..disturbing. And after looking at this picture that i took , i felt better. Somehow, looking at it reminds me that there's always hope in life. Hell, life's intrinsically made of hope in the first place :) without hope, would there be life? go figure :) Funny sometimes how pictures or even distant memories sometimes trigger this inner-panacea thing in our mind that spurs us on just the moment we need it. Funny, nevertheless true.
I've been rather busy preparing to go to International Education Centre (INTEC) in Shah Alam on the 28th of June. I'll be registering for A-Levels and frankly, i'm really looking forward to it. To meet new people, to rise up to the challenge of comprehending the syllabus, to engage in mind-broadening activities and not to forget, to meet up with some PKTR-ians who will be registering there as well xD I'll be at INTEC for 2 years and will hopefully be continuing tertiary life at International Medical University (IMU) for 2.5 years to complete my pre-clinical. The final 2.5 years after that , which would obviously be the clinical years would be done in either the UK , Australia , New Zealand , Canada or Ireland. It all depends on the results and everything. But oh well, that's a long way to go , and ahead, but yet, i'll gear myself up and be ready xD
Speaking bout getting ready for the challenges to come, there I was again, balancing the part and parcel in life. As always,'life's predictably unpredictable' :P When it doesn't come rolling our way, we just have to roll with IT. Adapting's a part of life and sometimes, we can all say is, 'come on..it can't be that hard. I'll just adapt'. Yeah, adapt. Everyone can say that. But how many do it? or how many of us exactly that are able to adapt sufficiently well?? Personally, it's a matter of how we look at it, or how we look at life, to generalise it in a way. And no matter how we try to adapt sometimes, i just can't seem to make life around us any easier to comprehend. So what then? I'd say keep on trying!! Remember, courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes, courage can be the little voice at the end of the day that says, 'i'll try again tomorrow'. ;) So why not u say? Just keep going, and we'll all eventually get there somehow :)
If u feel inferior to others around you , do something to lessen the feeling. If ur suffering from some sort of depression , try knocking urself out of it by smiling more and thinking bout the positives in life because for all you know, all it takes for you to be content sometimes, is by looking back at how far you've made it in life, and more importantly, how close you are to ruining it with ur pessimism. worth it? You do the math :) But still, I'd say think about this first will ya? No matter who you are, what you do , be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter won't mind :)
Oh well, guess i'll have to stop all this string of thoughts about life for a while. Having a lot on my mind in terms or preparing for INTEC and all, but yeah, i'll survive xD To all of those reading, think a lil' about what i've said, look into a mirror and ask urself a simple question when you have the time, 'am I who I am?' When you can smile at urself and be sure of ur answer, then yes, ur on track =)
signing off,
kyzd
p.s - this post is dedicated to people I know that are facing issues in life no matter how petty or big they might seem. Bear in mind, when you feel hopeless, just remember that life's made of hope :)
