randomness.panicky.

                                 [Did i do it right?? was it enough?]

  And so, life goes on. I've been thinking a lot bout the 12th. or whatever the friggin' date is when the results would be announced. and yeah, i admit. i'm scared. what's in store for me? will i make it? what's gonna happen? 1119 grade? bio? sej? add math? oh hell!! since the results thingy got into my head, i've had problems sleeping and i'd been bothered by millions of thoughts in my head about it whatever i decide to do.i just wanna say - i'm scared.and. it's not at all melodramatic or anything. it's just saddening to wait like this, losing all ur self-esteem and confidence to god-knows-where! i don't feel like saying anything now. with that said, it'll suffice for now.

signing off,

kyzd

of the results, foundations, pre-meds, MBBS and law?? oh !@#$%!!!

  i'm currently in a daze really. i don't know what i'm doing, what i'm supposed to do. and what i would turn out doing after a month or so. Heck, i don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow. okayy, enough crap. So, i went to the STAR edu fair in Penang with Tamim and Megat just yesterday. Met up with chia soon, bond , zi jing and kai seng there. Spoke to them for a lil while and we all went our own ways. Man there was so much to see i was robbed off my focus and attention..

 

EVENTUALLY, i made it straight to myself, [FOUNDATIONS, PRE-MED, MBBS and LAW]. yeap, that's it. so i went around wandering, speaking to almost all the reps from uni's and colleges who were there. and what did i find out? well, plenty. I'd love to brag all day long about the fair but i'll give it a pass since i'm feeling pretty lazy now xD We went for lunch and then headed to G Hotel for the IDP fair at 3, knowing that it was mainly for ppl who were interested to study in Aussie. And had discussions with the reps again. All in all, yeah u had fun. I got to know so much more, and i mean MUCH more about the applications , procedures, tenures and everything. And one thing's for sure, i know what i wanna do at that moment. I mean, it was all just filtered to a few options. 

Thing is ,ppl around kept on reminding me that the SPM results are due soon. which means, seriously, doomsday. It's either i live or i die really. And frankly, my self-esteem and confidence plus faith are stuttering down the ground as time goes on. It's rumored to be on the 12th of March. and yeah. i am friggin' drived up by the news. Not that i'm the only one worrying about the results i'm gonna get, but i just can't help but to think of it all the time.gawd, life's like that i guess..what's gonna happen? what will i be planning to do in the future? i know, but honestly, i still don't know.

see? back.to.the.daze.issue.

sigining off,

kyzd