sorry.but I'm back. for real.

'Where the hell have I been?!' That thought screwed my mind the moment it came up. It was exactly what I've been asking myself for the past..what? a few weeks? maybe even months? What was happening to me you ask? Trust me, i didn't know. All i know is my enthusiastic part sunk and vanished into thin air. It was like simple things that happened around me was affecting me.And the worst part is that I never was like that. I was never a pessimist. A bit by bit, as days went by, it got worse. And I just couldn't help it. I was a fool really. A fool of my own making. But i knew it. I knew the cause. I knew what I did wrong, where i went wrong, and when i went wrong. I should've known. Well, everyone and yeah, EVERYONE makes mistakes. Mistakes fill our lives up, whether we like it or not. And no matter what, now, I can look into the mirror and say, 'YEAP. I was foolish. But one can't be foolish for life eh? Everything has a start' =) Once again, some people would get this post more than what the others might. But whatever it is, life goes on. Thank you people and to those special few, you know who you are. Thanks for the knocking =) signning 'in' and off, kyzd "mistakes go a long way in life. and what matters most is not the consequences, but the values we all get from them, however excruciating they might be"

...of limitations, restrictions, and constraints.

The usual, some things hit us harder than we ever thought they would ; while some things, the other way round. Life's been nothing but the norm i guess, though implications of the things you're doing and also the ones you did seem to haunt u up to your neck at times. But yeah, it's been acceptable really.

Been thinking about some things for the past week. And after a week, i suppose, of disturbances, swings and god knows what else, i got back my senses as to what i was seeking for - the meaning of it. Well, ever had the thought of being superman? or superwoman? Be it Batman, Spiderman or whatever you would wanna call yourself, we all gotta wake up. One word, to me sums it all up. 'Limitations'. In life, personally looking at mine, I could easily find a lot of scenes where I, myself 'think' that i AM actually, a rubber band. Why a rubber band you ask? Well, rubber band - stretchable.

I've always been pushing myself to the limit in whatever i do, till the day that everything came crashing down on me, bearing a cruel reminder that I gotta have my own limitations as well. And I'm sure glad it did. I now realise. More than realise actually, you could say it was contextual with something 'dawning' upon me. Since we're all so well-versed with the fact that life doesn't go our way all the time, or well, maybe most of the time for some, limitations should be something that we familiarise ourselves with. We all have our limitations, no matter what we do. No matter what our aims are, no matter how we all plan to achieve them , or even simply not doing anything and just look at them, there ARE limitations for all those mentioned.

And what i realised most, is that sometimes when you stretch yourself too much, too much that the you actually cross the limit, and then if you aggravate things by 'forcing' you, yourself to sustain the strecthing, you will, one day, i believe break down. It's a just a matter of time. So before you actually do, remember, limitations are what makes us all human. Yeah, we can explore space, we can do this, do that, and at the end of the day, does it make a difference at all.We're still the normal pathetic beings (forgive me) we used to be, and are living it through, day after day. So, that implies how important realising something, someone or anything at all is to us. You'll never know what lies ahead, but just remember, we all have our limitations.

signning off,

kyzd

p.s - to those who don't get what i'm trying to say, I truly apologise. Fret not, you'll get what i mean eventually.

-I, myself regret. Limitations. Being fearless. Does it all come as one?-

"Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imaginations, our possibilities become limitless. But still, is it ever?"

it rekindles.

A long weekend. Well, at least longer than usual. A 3-day break shall we say? Not having college on Monday, and only when i thought i'd welcome the respite, i was suprised at how 'unwelcoming' i was to the break. oh well, things happen for a reason, and we all feel things for a reason. so yeah. Life's been pretty much a roller coaster ride these days. The good, the bad and the evil. They all come in packages and yeah, all together, one shot more often than by itself. But it's good. It's all good and a days go by, i'm learning to be a better person =) and yes, i sure need to learn a lot, but time will tell. Will it ever? Cheers =)

There’s a little truth behind every ‘just kidding’, a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering’, a little knowledge behind every ‘I don’t know’, a little emotion behind every ‘I don’t care’, and a little kick of lie behind the distant eyes of someone saying ‘I don’t love you.’

-stumbled upon this in sin toun's blog. gotta say i love it-

signning off,

kyzd