one word - busy. and no, it's not enough..damn i'm busy XD

owh..I haven't blogged in 2 days. Been busy with lotsa stuff these few days actually. Hmm..*flashing back*

Oh yeah, now i remember. I went for 4 hours of practical driving on Sunday and another 4 hours today, which completes it all =) only left QTI and JPJ test now. Should be okay i think..at least i hope..haha..Will be doing my QTI early January if nothing comes in between.

I've been sleeping pretty late actually..Since i came back from HK, the earliest i slept was at..3.30 a.m? yeah yeah, something like that i think..Haven't been able to sleep well and I don't have any clue bout what's causing it..haha..oh well..i'll try to sleep early tonight i guess. Last night, went for i went for supper together with Churn, Ooi and his girl. Went to Nasmir and i must say though it was brief, it was kinda fun =) Delivered some food for Ooi's bro and we sent her back to spg.empat. Then, we came back to my house. Ate snacks while watching the Arsenal vs. Liverpool game and i tell you, @#$% Adebayor!! haha..stupid red card..sigh..at least it was a draw in the end =)

Woke up early in the morning again to go for torturing driving lessons today as i've said. I'm gonna organise my things up before i go to KL tomorrow..yeah, going to start journey at 5.30 tomorrow i think. I'll be celebrating Christmas there and not to forget, my sister's birthday on New Year's Day itself. Plan to do some shopping and all, plus meet up with my cousins and uncles =) haha..Should be fun XD

Somehow, i keep getting the feeling that everything will turn 0ut okay eventually for me, but at the same time, my confidence and self-esteem keeps getting lower. and in case ur wondering what i'm talking about, yeah it's about the SPM results and stuff..Will I get what I want?? ah, gonna try to shut it outta my mind for now since there's not gonna be any solution to it =P

Guess i'll stop here. Wanna listen to some songs and sleep for a while..Then i'll do my organising and pack for tomorrow =) oh..btw before i forget, good luck to all those taking their PMR results on the 24th =) or whenever they get it since it's gonna be real soon neways XD haha..Take care people =)

Signing off,

kyzd

P.S - Am so looking forward to Christmas!! XD

ironically weird, but yeah.life goes on.

First thing's first - i got my phone back alive!! haha..It seemed so serious but it was not much of a problem in the end. The shop guy fixed it for me in no time :) so, cheers to me getting back my phone !! XD haha..Woke up early today and went for breakfast with my mum :) we went somewhere in town where we usually go on Fridays (at times..). The meal was good as usual, nothing really out of the norm except the crowd ordering. Seems that the que for the ordering thingy gets worse during the hols.oh well, it's worth it i guess =)

Went to Sentosa after that to 'cure' my phone and it actually went well ;) Only catch is that I have to reprogramme all the softwares that were in my phone before this as the operating system (OS) has gone crazy..Symbian oh symbian..haha..It's okay i guess as long as I don't lose my phone or anything!! XD Halfway through the reprogramming process now actually.Gonna be really careful so i don't 'accidentally' kill my phone, again..haha..

Back to what i was saying, I went for badminton too actually. Yeah, again. Went to MRC with Ooi and a few ex-collegians for a game and frankly, no i don't really like the place. I kinda prefer ASRC or even 'the usual spot' i always play.haha..We booked the court from 7 to 9 at night, so it was all cool around and we enjoyed ourselves =) I'm planning to have a good rest tomorrow and get ready for 4 hours of practical driving lessons on Sunday and Monday *breathes heavily* It'll turn out okay eventually, but 8 hours in just 2 days? crappy..haha..(and to think that there's still QTI and JPJ test to come?? *faints*)

As much as I hate cramming my to-do list and finish them in such a short time, I have no other choice . I'll be in KL for a week or maybe even 2  after this. Definitely going there before Christmas cause i'll be celebrating it there =)  Kinda looking forward to it but still, i'd be missing so fun back home in AS..Well, I guess I'll pass on talking bout it.

Christmas seems so special every year. I just love it and honestly, ...oh nevermind..it's not something i wanna talk about in public anyways.I guess i'll stop here. I just hope this year's Christmas would be as special too..sigh..Gotta rest earlier tonight, not that it's too late..but..ah..i don't feel like typing anymore tonight..

Adios people.

Signing off,

kyzd

P.S - I hope things would turn out the way i want it to, but it's simply impossible. I'll leave it to time then.I'm just so full with conflicts.

i miss my phone already =(

Crap!! That's what i'd say if u asked me bout today. Well, it wasn't all crappy actually. Woke up a lil late at 1 in the afternoon, and it was great..haven't done that in like ages :) Went out for a lil' while after lunch just to walk around in AS Mall...Came back after a while too actually cos there wasn't much to see..haha..I actually had body aches all over cause i've been stretching myself to the limit working out these few days..And to think that i'd probably be playing badminton again tomorrow..haha..god knows XD

So..after having dinner with my mum, i decided that i'd continue my so far futile efforts in updating my phone with the latest v30. firmware from Nokia, been trying since the last few days.The phone always goes crazy during the update process, which is mainly why the process eventually collapses..so this one 'lucky' and u could say its been the umpteenth time of me trying to update my phone, something worse happened..

As i'd expected, the updating process failed, yet again. This time , i couldn't even switch on my phone anymore =.= i tried so many ways of formatting and resetting my phone but everything didn't work. I'm actually full with remorse now of even having the intention to update my phone in the first place!!! sigh..shit happens..and this time it really did..at a very bad time, when i'm having so much things to do on my hands..

I'm using my mum's old phone now, the Sony Ericsson which is quite decent actually..not that old lar..but still..i LOVE my phone much much more than anything else..sigh..CRAP CRAP CRAP!! phew..enough's enough..It's happened, so i'll just wait and see how i'll settle it..Might wanna go over to the shop tomorrow to see what options I have..Hopefully it wouldn't involve any sending of my phone to the service centre which would take a solid 2 weeks! I'll be dead by then =(

Oh yeah, enough bout the phone issue. I got an email from the Yayasan Tun Abdul Razak Foundation. Asking me to be present for an interview for a leadership programme in kay elle in January on the 3rd of Jan itself. It's at the Arkib Negara cawangan Kedah for chosen ones from Kedah and Perlis.There'll be 6 candidates all together so hopefully i'll pass through :)

Just came back a while ago from Gemilang actually. Had supper with some ex-Collegians just to catch about old stuff and too see how their doing. It was fun, with all the laughing and stories we shared bout everything happening in their lives. (note: their 7 years older than I am, so it'll be weird for me to share any life stories with them..) haha..so i just listened and talked along ;)  Neways, i'm so tired right now.Feel like fainting. haha..oh well, guess i'll just stop here for today. Catch u people later XD

Signing off,

kyzd

P.S - I'm praying frantically to the 'God Of Phones" if there's one so that my phone will wake up from it's comma!! God bless my phone XD

trials and tribulations they say? will it ever end, will it not? frankly, i don't know.

I feel much better today after having a good rest last night. To tell u the truth, i've not felt as tired as yesterday for quite a while. No, hold on. I've felt more tired than that preparing for SPM. It's just that physical exertion and the fatigue and mental strain that comes with it satisfy me at times ;) times when i don't have anything i really need to do =)

I'm not sure about any plans i have today. I'll be heading to ASRC later in the afternoon for another game of badminton and meet-up with Nic, Churn and Chia Yang plus a few others ( Ooi!!).haha..It'd be fun and for that i'm sure of it XD Not really sure whether we'll be going out for any gatherings or not tonight. We'll see..

Okay, enough of crapping. I've been thinking for quite some time about something actually.Err..here goes :

You know how it feels when anyone complains about the pain they feel and the stark reality they have to go through in the process of getting or even, losing something or someone? Whatever it is, the point there which strikes me is : why do we have to go through so much to get something? I'm not trying to pose any act of immaturity here but i'm sure all of u have heard of the saying, 'no pain, no gain" right? It's really common and..ah, hell with the sayings..

So what if i wanna gain something without having to feel any pain?? and so what if i choose any easy way to achieve whatever i wanna achieve and suffer no loss or pain at all?? That thought keeps on hovering in my head and finally, i've come up with an understanding of my own - something that would just shut the problem up, permanently i hope. I've set my mind on it, and yeah, i'm gonna give it all for it : i'm determined XD

All i can say is God is fair and with everything u get, it's gonna be another thing that u lose..I would say it's pretty much like the economy nowadays :

• The economy flops - global financial downfall - the occurence of the Tiger year or something whereby economist predicts a slump in share markets be it Wall Street, BSKL or whatever it's name is.
• For example, in our country, the prices of gasoline surges up and then comes down. Foodstuff and other materials on the other hand, keeps on going up and down too.
• You see, their relatively complementing each other, whereby when the petrol prices goes up, so does the foodstuff and vice versa, plus other things come down to accomodate the gains and losses caused.
• In short, we gain something, and we lose some other things at the same time.

I apologise if the metaphor is pretty out of context but i'm currently in such a state of mind where i'd try to look at things from a complex and sophisticated kinda perpective. Maybe i should try to be simpler in that manner?? I don't know. Now, i'll have  another contradiction to think about for a few days ahead..lol..

Neways, gotta go settle my stuff now.Catch u people later then ;) Take some time and give it a thought, it might help, might not, who cares? XD

signing off,

kyzd

finally, a day out of the 'norm' =)

i'm very tired today, but it was worth it.Haven't had so much fun in quite some time XD Honestly, no. I don't feel like blogging or anything..too tired from all that i've done today. Badminton + Basketball + PS 2 + compilations + a lil' bit of reading and much more = FAMISHED. Enough said =) 

Signing off,

kyzd

P.S - i'll be blogging more tomorrow i hope =P

and the Gunners flop again...will it ever end??

  A picture of Walt Disney's Castle i took at the HK Disneyland. It shocked me that it actually cost 300,000 HK Dollars or RM150,000!! LOL =) 

'Victoria Concordia Crescit". And yes, the motto speaks for itself, 'Victory, or in other words, success through harmony'. For all of u still wondering about the origin of the Latin phrase i've just mentioned, look no further. Some might already know. Some might be unbelievably oblivious to what it even means. Oh well, it's actually the motto of Arsenal Football Club, a.k.a , The Gunners. As much as i hate studying history before SPM, i wouldn't wanna crap any longer about the history of this favourite soccer team of mine XD

This year's been a somewhat weird year for the Gunners. First, they started out brightly with lotsa people saying that their finally gonna end their silverware drought years since the year of the 'Invincibles'. Gunner fans were given so much hope, but now, their beloved team lies 5th in the Barclays Premier League table, which i would regard , from the perspective of one of the biggest football club in the world, TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE!!

I just can't help myself but to frut and stret about the inconsistency of the team nowadays. They lose to Hull, Stoke City, Fulham, and then out of nowhere, they topple Man. United and even Chelsea. What a series of events to follow..hmph..oh nevermind, think i'll just stop the crap about Arsenal. Before that, i really hope that they'll turn things around and topple Liverpool next Sunday =) *and he braces himself and his team* (bwahaha..)

Back to reality, i could best describe today as another 'normal' one for me. Frankly, nothing much happened today. I kinda filled my time reading magazines, articles i'd missed and surfing the net. Oh yeah, I also INDULGED myself into playing Final Fantasy XII =) , which i really did enjoy XD haha..so much for not going to really touch the PS 2 after SPM...lol..

By the way, the updates i tried to install on my phone failed, due to some error with the connection cables.Gonna try to explore and fix it myself tomorrow i think ;D Really want the latest firmware update from Nokia thingy cause they'll be less bugs and less lag with the phone, as well as extended talktime, music playing time and etc..Hopefully, i'd be able to do it.haha..doubt it though..lol..

Let's see, if everything goes as planned, i'll be going to kay elle on before Christmas to celebrate it there. Will be there for New Year as well and this year i DON'T NEED to worry about getting back home before school reopens!! =) hahaha...(sorry for bragging bout this..but i just LOVE the fact that i don't have to go to school nemore XD ) I'll be going for some exhibition at the Stadium Merdeka or something with my cousins and uncles. There'll be some foreign cars thingy there..more details about the exhibition can be acquired at Gurney Plaza ;) Whoever's going just pm me on my msn aite? Maybe we could meet up and have a drink of something XD

Anyway, think i just leave it here for today. Gotta go finish up some work i've left late..haha..To everyone having a vacation or going anywhere, have a safe journey and enjoy ur holidays ;) oh..happy coming back Churn, Nic and Chia Yang =) see you guys soon X)

P.S - Gunner forever XD

signing off,

kyzd

another typical day, kicking boredom out of it.

Today? Hmmm...I'd say it's been another typical day where life moves on with me in front of the computer for almost the whole day X) I've been updating my iPod, iTunes, arranging the folders and stuff on my pc itself and most importantly, updating the new v31. firmware released by Nokia Corporations on my Nokia N95 =) It's been quite a while since i'd even have the time to update the firmware and explore a little on my 'symbian-software-craze" =) haha..well, let's just say i have a lil' of a kick when it comes to techies and gadgeteries X)

Moving on, I've also been playing Final Fantasy XII all over again since i've forgotten the storyline to the part of the game when i last played it way way before SPM! haha..so since i'll be having lotsa time, i guess i'll just try to finish the game, again =) 

Was supposed to be going to Langkawi this 18th but had the trip cancelled cause there's not really any slightest feeling of tempt or provocation in me to go there..haha..so, i think i'd rather stay at home to finish up on my personal errands (computers, books and stuff..) and to try to complete as much as i can for my license thingy. Darn the agonisingly SLOW processes!!

Am still working on the updates on my phone actually, trying to get the cracks and stuff to integrate some accelerometer apps. in it =) I don't really feel like crapping much today, so i guess i'll just give it a pass and blog more tomorrow =) Enjoy ur holidays people ;D

signing off,

kyzd

 

and it all starts from a scratch, again..

There u go again, it's the first post of another 'new' blog of mine. I've actually been blogging for a while now but since it's pretty common that i'd up NOT blogging everytime i log into my xanga, i decided to just give it a switch..oh well, life's crappy neways.

Firstly, life after SPM has been pretty okay.I keep feeling so weird that there's not much to do nowadays.It's like everything has just gone away - the pressured, positive mentality, the alertness, the eveready inspirational adrenaline pump of some sort, and all those mindsets before SPM. it's all gone.I'd be stupid if I even thought of finding it again, but yeah..i did try..To no avail i would say, i gave up.I'll just let nature take it's path and see where it leads me i guess..

My vacation with my family in Hong Kong was as pleasant as i expected it to be.In Hong Kong, i actually thought about a lot of things..my favourite quote : 'how things revolve around us, or how we revolve around those things itself, which leads to the life we all have" . That particular quote actually got stuck in my head practically the whole time i was in HK..Related it to lotsa things happening around me as well as in the lives of other, but then i found no answers whatsoever that seemed a satisfactory to the questions relating to that quote plaguing my mind all this while..well, life's a b**** neways..

Usually, i prefer to start a blog or whatever it is i'm working on just with a short note.But this time's a total turnaround i think. I have loads of things i wanna blog about but there's just no endings to how i want to actually express them out..i think i'm just having another dilemma about personality issues again, the very same thing that bothered me before SPM! LOL..i'll just opt for the choice i've been preferring to anything else lately - leave it and see how it goes.

Moving on to something a lil' more serious, does any of u know how it feels when u really have the passion to do something but ur not sure whether u'd be able to do it?? or whether anything outta ur aim would just come and distract u from the road ur actually supposed to take in life?? i'll just keep that in my head for a while..haha..here's the summary of this thingy bothering me ;

• I've been really passionate about become a medicine practitioner since i was young , since 5 years old i think. As naive as i was back then, that 'childhood ambition of mine got serious as time passed'.
• I tried to excel in everything i do, applying pressure to myself most of the time when it matters just to pave a way for me to realise my dream.
• Now, when i'm older , i realise that things in life doesn't always go ur way - (the metaphor on having ups and downs in life? i'll just crap that outta context for now..)
• Due to some 'unforseen' circumstances (eg. horrible competition or maybe a sense of unfairness, etc.) , i may not be able to do medicine in university or anything even close to that.For those people around me, u understand what i mean.
• Then, i got some Petronas interview for a Civil Engineering scholarship although i didn't apply for it.It caught me off guard and i was literally 'separated' into 2 halves, one that wanted to go, and one that did NOT.
• What if i don't get the chance to get any scholarships for medicine cause i end up screwing my SPM results??! where do i go from here? should i opt for passion or just some mere opportunity that comes my way??
• In the end , i rejected it, not knowing what got me the courage to do it since i'm not really confident i'll be able to get a scholarship in anything for myself when the results are announced..
• and then, it all comes in my mind and get stuck in it again - whether i made the right choice? or did i not?? I DON'T HAVE A CLUE.

I guess that's just me for to leave it there as i don't think i'm able to do anything at all about it for NOW. Think i've crapped all i want for the first post. There's definitely more to come soon ;) for those reading this, thanks a lot =)

P.S - i just realised how much i missed blogging XD

Signing off,

kyzd